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Everytime I see a pair of shoes that are way gorgeous, I buy it without much consideration because I felt that it is such a big want to me. Living in Singapore, a 1st world country, most of us residing here can buy things that we like that are of different colours or designs. Sometimes, when things can still be used like phones, we desire for better or faster ones and we replace the old ones even if those were still working perfectly fine. Well, I have been thinking about all of these ever since the lecture I had yesterday in campus for my OCP Cambodia trip. As my lecturer told us more about the Cambodians and showed us some photos of them, my heart sank.
I've actually thought about this many times before but I haven't thought about it so seriously this time. Our parents were always saying 'Don't waste, use what still can be used. In other countries, people don't even have the chance of getting them.' Usually, we would just quietly obey or pretend to obey those words. In actual fact, people living in less fortunate countries like Cambodia do not even have houses to live in and they have to stay in the streets. When garbage trucks come to remove the garbage stored on the lorry, we would most likely run because the smell is so unbearable but in Cambodia, people would just run as fast as they can to outrun others to the garbage. Without even knowing what they are grabbing, they simply put whatever seems to be food into their mouths because they are just so hungry. Our wants are actually they needs.
After hearing all of these, I actually had this really upset feeling and I felt really really guilty because I feel that I usually buy things that I do not really need but because I want it and sometimes I really waste things by just throwing them away simply because they are so in the way and my room is so full of things so I throw them away to make space. I also tend to complain when I can't get what I want (I think everyone does right?). Now, guilty ttm!
On the other hand, besides feeling really upset and gulity and knocking myself on the head in my mind, I feel happy. Okay, not really happy but glad because I'm in this OCP. I had my doubts and hesitated when I went for the interview and after I found out I had been accepted into the programme but now I don't. I really want to help them. The death rates of babies as well as the average age of deaths (Both males and females) are extremely high as compared to Singapore so I hope that I can really help about that.
Thinking back, this actually also made me think about my dream. So far in this course of study, I've always told myself that I was forced to be here because I could not enter my first 3 choices of courses and due to that mentality, I've always didn't want to sit down and seriously study for once. I was quite scared back then because I seemed to lose my track in life as I did not know what else to do after I decided to give up my dream of becoming a professional designer due to my parent's rejection. But now maybe I've found my way again. Helping people in this way, spreading the knowledge of nutrition, doesn't seem so bad.
Before this post becomes too long and lengthy, going to stop here!
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