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It's already Thursday which marks that the end of the first week of holidays are coming to an end soon. I've been really tired still despite being able to sleep and wake up as late as I want. Probably because my body clock is getting really weird and I always wake up automatically even though I'm still super tired. Like on Tuesday night I slept at at close to 3am and woke up at around 8.30am!
Every holiday, it's like a routine to get a manicure/pedicure, dye my hair and go sing karaoke. This holiday however, I bet the first 2 on the list cannot be fulfilled T.T
Firstly, it's only a two week holiday and I've to remove nail polish by the first lab lesson I have which only allows me to have them on for at most... 3 week? Not worth it.
And next, I'm forbidden to dye my hair anymore by my parents T.T Damn, I feel like I'm wasting my youth time in a way because this is the time that I can try all the crazy colours. Imagine a teenager with crazy rainbow hair, I think it's way cooler than an adult with crazy rainbow hair. I mean, when you're working and everything, I can imagine that there will be so many restrictions and when you grow even older, youcan but I won't even try such things at all. SO, the best time is NOW. Oh well, theres absolutely no point fussing over things you can't do.
Singing karaoke, I went down to Aranda Country Club and they had this 10 dollar club which is a $10 ktv session. Yes, $10 for ktv is super duper cheap as compared to kbox. $10 is for singing from 2 to 7pm with free flow of drinks. What's more, they're music are quite updated and they already have songs like I Love You by 2NE1 that was released 5 months ago. For a family ktv, it's pretty good already. Of course, with Jan and Joseph there, we really had a good time screaming and shouting like crazy into the mic. It has been quite some time since I've been that high and happy.
Now? I'm stuck at home. Somehow I don't have the motivation to do anything these days. All I do is just sit in front of my computer. Listening to songs somehow made me feel really bad because of my past relationship but I know what's done is done. No doubt, I'm still feeling upset about it till this day. A simple smile or laugh may cover it up by showing that I'm happy in a way but at the end of the day, I just cuddle on my bed and I feel miserable. I know people are talking, but I can't be bothered anymore because I'm tired of fighting. If others are having different thoughts about me, so be it. I'm not going to complicate the situation by begging to differ.
Okay, enough with the emo stuff. :)
I was actually pretty excited to go clubbing for the first time of my life with my dear sweet cousins but unfortunately, my parents are pretty against it so.... next time maybe. I've been asking myself why because they didn't tell me much but I'm pretty sure it has something to do with
'Those places have too many stuff that are too complicated' 'What if you get drunk?' 'What if some random stranger takes advantage of you?'
I guess most parents have such thinking because of dramas on tv because I always see my parents watching dramas where things go wrong most of the time in clubs.
Honestly, the thing that I wanted to do most when I turned 18 was to go to a club. I mean, at least have a try because you only live once. I mean, yes, complicated things do happen in clubs but it's alright if you go in big groups right? I mean, just being on the dance floor and partying with your friends seems to be a really nice thing.
Most of the time in my life, I've always been going to school to study and then come home. I'm not trying to deny the fact that that's my responsibility as a teenager to study because I've to make my parents proud for all they've done for me. But I wish that they'll just give me a night off that life that I've always wanted to run away from to just... have fun.
Anyways, I guess they'll have to let go of the chains that are holding me down one day. Hopefully when I grow older, they'll put more trust in me. And I'll be longing for that day to come.
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