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Hi! It's ma birthday! It may be so but this time I'm not really feeling it that much because there have been many stuff happening all at once lately. Now when I think back on how things had been for the past year, I never regarded myself as an eighteen year old teen probably because it is my final year in Polytechnic. I am confident to say this year of being eighteen had the biggest impact of my life so far. What kind of impact? Well, mostly bad. In the beginning, I just fell into despair and I had forgotten about all the people I have by my side, thinking that I'm alone to walk through what seemed like a path of fire. I fell sick, I started to work. I've never felt so responsible for myself in my life and it made me feel like the previous years of my life were just full of goofing around for fun and laughter. Life just means so much more than that. I remember the hard times I went through this past year. Constantly trying to be strong in front of everyone and just one day I would just let my feeling explode uncontrollably. All along I had forgotten about those who cared, who kept a look out for me, who actually had been there all along to catch me when I fall. I'm not alone. All bad stuff aside, it's a new year coming and I'm finally 19, the last time I will have a 1 as the first digit. Age may just be a number but it actually marks where you are in life. Right now, sitting right here and thinking about it, it may be terrifying, who knows what challenges and problems are coming that may swoosh me off my feet?
I'm spending the remaining few minutes of time on 31st October 2013 to write all this. It has been a tough year, but I feel that I am stronger than I ever was. I may not know what is coming ahead of me but I do know that: I. Am. Ready.
