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Hi there~ So life has kind of been in a stand-still lately for me. I believe people out there who are in the same stage of life as me face the same thing. What to do for the future? When you've graduated and maybe you have been thinking of what you want to do for your future, the feeling just SUCKS. For people who know exactly what they want, good for them. But for people like me, not knowing what to do just makes everything worse. I may be ready to go in a direction I have passion in with all my might but when you don't know where you want to go, what do all that drive have to do with anything? It just goes down the drain. I guess now I'm super relieved that I decided to take a gap year to think about things. Oh, and graduation is just the end of next month. I'm determined to take a break off first, now just earning money to get by and going out to enjoy myself. But at the end of the day, I sit on my bed and think that I have nothing accomplished. No matter how relaxed and satisfied I feel, it only lasts for a moment and then everything shifts to what's going to happen in the future. AGAIN. So I guess for everyone when you're young, you wish you were older but when you're older, you wish you were younger. Don't want to ever grow up right? I miss days when I do not have to worry about this kind of things. But, life goes on whether we like it or not. Better to face it than brag on how terrible everything is going because it ain't going to help. Thank god I have this blog that I have thanked myself for setting up multiple times. Blogging has always been a joy to me in one way or another and it has become quite a big part of my life. Also during times like this is when I begin to think about upcoming things in the near future such as my 21st next year and picking up new skills. Oh, and I started my guitar lessons and finally learning how to play an actual song! Not a boring song like Twinkle Twinkle (LMAO my sister said that, underestimating me), but a song by Adele! Drum roll..... 'Someone Like You'! Alright, growing up isn't all that bad too. You have freedom, to a certain extent. But how you use that freedom can cause you to crumble after taking even a single step. You have something so great given to you, but the responsibility is huge. Yes, the word is responsibility. At the end of the day, you are responsible for yourself. It may sound like common sense but sometimes you don't fully understand such things until you truly experience it.
Like me. Right now. Haha.
Right now it's late in the night and I know this post is kind of here and there and maybe full of random stuff clumped together. Life may be tough, but we can make it worth living. Okay, randomly trying to come up with some quote so yeah.
Re-posting this from some time back
Pity my hair is now pink-ish unlike the awesome purple I used to have
Okay, the message is
In the midst of darkness, don't forget to smile
Keeping walking
Alright, that's all for today then. It always feel so good to let it all out once in awhile ;)
