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Greetings :) Just something that has been in my mind lately that I want to talk about. Since I'm in the process of knowing more about myself and making decisions about my future, this year of my life is an important one. Of course, on the way, I learn more about not only myself but also the people around me. Before I continue on for this post, I just want to say that all this is part of my opinion and these are all my thoughts. I don't know about "everyone" but I do know about "most people". Most people would have experienced things like friends turning away from you. You may not know why but people who were around you may be gone one day by choice. Why? We may not find out the reasons but is it worth holding on to, we can decide for ourselves. Of course, this bottles down to the individual because no friendship or relationship is the same. Perception. This is the thing that differs for all. What do I mean? People see things in a different way and they judge in different ways. Some people run when they have a problem to face but some stand firm to the ground and face it. Some think that delaying the problem as long as possible would somehow make things better one day while some would think that settling everything once and for all is the best. There is no correct and wrong answers in life and I'm not going to judge any way. I, myself, have gone through loads of thick and thin like most people and I noticed that how I matured over the years is how I deal with people around me. I think of myself as abnormal (I do NOT mean special okay, there's a difference) and alien and when people used to tell me I am "weird" or "strange", I get really upset and would wonder to myself for days and nights about what I did to make them think of me in those ways. But now, I simply smile, shrug and say "oh thank you" and get on with my life. I think it's part of growing up. Let's face it, in Secondary school especially, everyone becomes super judgmental about attitude, looks and the things we say. It's kind of the beginning phase and even when you are like that to others, remember others also judge you back. And people get affected by it. Now that years have gone by and I am far past that stage, I know that I don't really care about what others think about me now because their opinions do not have an impact on my life. Maybe they do but I learnt to ignore it. Now, I think I'm all good and I know people like me love to look back to how I was in the past and regret. No, I actually don't because I know I am who I am because of my past. If I hadn't been there, I would be a sensitive and emotional girl right now. I think I still kind of am, I mean, no one ever becomes oblivious to every single situation and emotion right? I always tell myself not to regret the past because it made me who I am today. Not everything bad is bad because I believe everything that happens has a reason. You may not know then but when you think about it again in the future, you'll know. :)
"You can't write a book from a single page"
- Little Me by Little Mix
"Maybe we're a little different there's no need to be ashamed"